tengah nazak sekarang ni.. ye la dah hujung-hujung studi ni kan...
so.. hari ni saja nak bagi hapdet la sket...
20 jun dulu... I pergi Hong Kong for 1 week.. ada conference...i present papar yg bertajuk " HEPATIC BIOMARKER RESPONSES IN THE RICE FROG, FEJERVARYA LIMNOCHARIS, NATURALLY EXPOSED TO ENVIRONMENTAL STRESS FROM CADMIUM CONTAMINATION"
i also dapat student award kat konferens nih.. dapat la 350 USD
balik dari HK... demam seminggu.. ingatkan H1N1 atau bird flu... rupanya cuma tonsilitis...hehehehe... penyakit bebudak
then last two weeks.. i dah habiskan skeletochronology...yeay....although data analysis belum lagi...
sekarang ni tengah buat vitellogenin... seksa sket la... dah 2 kali ulang.. resuly very der all over the place...hari ni buat kali yg ketiga... kalau serabut gak.. my conclusion... there's no cross reaction between vtg and the commercially available antibody...hehehehe
dissertation writing... dah about 50-60% complete dah...
tarikh untuk thesis defense pun dah ada.. samada 25 september atau 2 october... tak lama lagi kan... gerunnnnnn
sekarang ni i dok kat rumah iqbal kat kedutaan.. bini dia si harlina balik malaysia sampai hujung bulan ni.. so i dok kat sana la sampai hujung bulan nih.semalam ada game thailand vs liverpool kat ramkhamhaeng.... punya la ramai orang...
and finally.... I am in love again...jarak jauh... tapi sekali sekala jumpa gak.. dia kat Petchaburi.... english teacher kat sana...ermmmm dia ni org Filipina....so tengokla macam mana relationship kali ni...and untuk dia...R... i dedicate this song..MAHAL KITA... yg bermaksud I love you
one-what you wearing now :* dark brown t-shirt (saiz S tau) ngan jeans hitam two-where you going later :* nak balik kot sebab takde mood nak buat keja hari ni
three-who are missing right now :* makcik biah, no contest
four-what are you stressed about these days :* skeletochronology tak leh nak start lagi...
five-whose the last person you chat with :* Yoks... my pinoy friend who teaches english at Anuban Phetchaburi School
six-what makes you happy when you're down :* makan aiskrim
seven-do you wanna get into a r/s now :* in a two r/ship now… one more wouldn’t hurt kannnn eight-have you got a crush on someone :* masih lagi kat Mai nine-ever have a near death experience :* sampan karam kat muara sungai merbuk
ten-whats the time now :* 4.26 petangi waktu Bangkok
eleven-met anyone earlier on :* gi melawat si Iqbal kat hospital... slipped disc
twelve-what did you do just now :* la... melawat si iqbal la kan... pastu cuci mata kat Silom thirteen-whats ur favourite show :* Will & Grace, pasru sinetron indonesia kat RCTI..hehehh
fourteen-what lang do you speak in? :* english, BM, Thai (nit noi)
fifteen-what you hate :* last week... the whole week pening and sakit-sakit.. penangan XYLENE sixteen-wat channel do u usually watch? :* MNet Series, RCTI, KBS seventeen-what annoys you :* sekarang ni... panas n hujan.. jadi cam steam plak
eighteen-where you living at :* Ramkhamhaeng Soi Ha Sip Sam
ninteen-when did anyone last ask for ur number :* Jay fron Indonesia twenty-whats ur favourite pet :* duck... tapi dah jadi rendang twentyone-wheres the place you wanna go now :* balik umah kot
twentytwo-do you like sweet talks :* yes… very much
twentythree-would you mind ur boyfriend/girlfriendbe a gangster :* kalau dia pandai sweet talk… I don't mind twentyfive-whats ur real name :* Nyek masih panggil I Lijah… tetapi kengkadang Semah
twenysix-whats ur favourite month: :*October ni.. harap-harap nya habis PhD twentyseven-have you ever been stung by a bee :* yes... a few times
twentyeight-will you post bulletin as & when you like :* yup
twentynine-who was the last person you hugged :* sape hah….. oooo Kodok Songkran… 2 minggu lepas thirty-whose the last person you said 'I love you' to :* dua hari lepas kat Y.. pastu kat J plak
amacam..... ada perubahan tak hidup I since the last time I jawab soalan-soalan nih....
Dapat artikel ni dari internet... hmmmm nad rasanya ada beberapa orang yang i kenal ada ciri-ciri toxic personality ni la....
so silalah baca...
1.Manipulative Mary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.
Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.
2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."
Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.
3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.
Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.
4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.
Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.
5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.
Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.
6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.
Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.
7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.
Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.
8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.
Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.
All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.
ye la.. start dengan i kena copet tuh... things gets bad la....
paling tidak pun, mentally
histology was not going well....my technique in slide preparation was not good.. so in the end i kena buat balik...waste of a lot of time betul...
and the heat and rain pulak... buat i rasa sangat tak selesa... macam dalam steam room masa siang.. tapi bila malam.. sejuk sesangat...
and bila sejuk.. pain kat my knee ni start to exaggerate la....
and worse... i started to have neck pain.. and sometimes headache..
and i can only attribute this to one factor.... XYLENE..
ye la, for the past 2 weeks.. i've been dealing with toluene almost daily.. sure i pakai mask,.,,, tapi rasanya ada gak yg terlepas n masuk dalam my respiratory system.
tapi starting this week... things have been changing ..
i finished all my slides.. and they all turned up beautifully..
last night, i showed the slides to Dr Jirarach.. and she was very impressed....
and i also noticed some very good observation in many of the slides
i found that there are more Kupffer cells in the liver of frogs in contaminated sites as compared to reference sites...
i found uncharacteristic black/brown pigmen in atretic ovary of frogs in contaminated sites as well
i found what looks like an infllamation in one of the kidneys of frog in contaminated site
i found an uncharacteristic clump of cells among normal kidney cells... very unusual density and number, with some white blood cells interspersed... which i might interpret (albeit wrongly) as cancer cells in the kidney of contaminated frog
and in a mature testis, i found a lot of fully developed sperms... and also two ova....hehehehehe.. did i just stumble upon a hermaphroditic frog.. matila katak fefonen....Dr Jirarach was very excited about this...
and that's not all jugak...
I am actually going to Hong Kong for the 16th International Congress of Comparative Endocrinology at Honh Kong University...
but mrasalah registration fee is USD350 untuk student...but my advisor insisted that i register.. and my abstract has been accepted... so i'm going there on June 20th sampai june 27th.
and yesterday... i just got an e-mail daripada the Prof Fred Leung (the organizing committee chairman) saying that my abstract have been selected by the committee to be given the 16th ICCE student/post doc award... valued at HKD2800 (around USD350).. best sesangat kan...
and also yesterday.. i had a talk with Dr Noppadon about the progress of my research... and he was very pleased.. in fact his wife, Dr Jirarach said that "if only the other students would work as hard as you sham... they should look at you sham"
and he answers some of my worries about skeletochronology and vitellogenin (both i have yet to do..)..and last night's session really clears my my mind...
so today.. I am happy.. and also i have to mention that i am happy that Kris Allen has won the American Idol...yeayyyy
so what will i do today... welll... hari ni tak hectic sangat...
settlekan yuran punya hal ...apparently KPT dah bayar yuran kat my institute... phewwww lega
see Dr Wichase untuk confirmkan method for skeletochronology.. i hope to start it next week
gi semayang jumaat la....
cari souvenir untuk Shahril, Liza and Arissa.. depa dah nak balik mesia
kalau ada masa.. jumpa si Arimi.. dia datang sini hari ni
then gi konsert kat Thailand Cultural Center.. apparently ada artis brunei, filipina, thai.. and also from malaysia.. sape lah agaknya artis malaysia tuh ye... harap-harap azharina ada la...
mlm ni tido kat umah si shahril... sebab esok kami plan nak gi Bueng Chawak kat Suphan Buri...
ok itulah aje hapet i kali nih...
sekarang ni dah tak pening dah
p/s i dah beli kamera baru..hehehe.. yg murah je lah.. yang lama tu dah semi-kong dah
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